249. October 6-7.
It was very much and yet very merciful. How a black veil or skin which was drawn over, shining, yet had no substance; it was said that it would not keep right, for it was crumpled together. And it was promised to enlighten me better; there was seen also as it were an inward light. I wish myself to do it on Sundays: Meaning that I had gone with my understanding and fantasy into something, which is analogous to the black gauze which does not keep right. Again I saw an abyss which is the danger I am in with my thoughts.
